Actions Speak Louder Than Words

I was brutally reminded today that actions speak louder than words. My ears are still ringing....

Wine-buying pinky-grabber decided blogs ago to jump off the face of the earth.... I guess my pinky didn't make that much of an impression. In my frustration, I kept him off the face of the earth with no chance of rescue or return be deleting him from my life. In true facebook-stalking fashion, he re-requested me, and it was in this instant that I decided to write him a message on how I truly felt... so he called to tell me why....

Now, my sister has always told me... "Don't ask why. Do you really want to hear the reasons? Is it going to make you feel any better?" Well, when you don't know the reasons, you always assume that hearing them is going to make you feel better. And perhaps, you imagine that he won't give reasons... he'll actually say he didn't realize you were feeling that way and ask you out again!!!

The fact that he wasn't calling me or asking me out should have been a serious indication.... Did I really need to hear why? I guess I did, otherwise I wouldn't have written him an email....

I know the true reason I was hanging on to WBPG.... he is HOT. But there is so much more to an amazing man than his physical attributes. I want to admire him for everything he does and has done and wants to do. I want him to want to call me, and grab my pinky when I drink wine (or tea). I want him to be attractive, of course.... but attractive can come in more than just a physical package. Sense of humor, intelligence, respect, and honesty can all contribute to attraction. I am completely aware that my focus with men needs a serious shift..... Otherwise, I may be in for a ton of let downs and guys going M.I.A. from Earth....

I know there is someone out there for me... and I cannot wait for him to truly appreciate my useless pinky, incessant singing and dancing, my affinity for wine and cheese, my fascination of the paranormal, my tendency to cry when emotional or watching a sad movie, my amazing family, my need to own a Maltese puppy, and my crazy dreams of success in New York City....-M